The sound of sheer silence

It's been a while, but I saw this and it reached me, so I thought id share it!! Dear God, Please untie the knots that are in my mind, my heart, and my life. Remove the have nots, cannots, and do nots. Erase the will nots, may nots, might nots that may find a home in my heart. Release me from the could nots, would nots, should nots that obstruct my life.. And most of all, Dear God, I ask that you remove from my mind, my heart, and my life all of the “am nots” that I have allowed to hold me back. Especially the thought that I am not good enough. Amen <3 Go in peace, for the Lord is with you, always and forever

Im so happy, my blog is working again, im in Malaysia, i've made lots of new friends, I have awesome new bedding from Ikea and my room actually feels like home now rather than a hotel....its all very exciting, but now however we're off out for tea and then to see Final Destination 5!! I will update very soooooon, if you're reading this, then no doubt I miss you-remember that. Whoever you are, whatever you believe, I wish you a happy Hari Raya, God is good, however you depict him Amen <3 Go in peace, for the Lord is with you, always and forever

Each time I begin to wonder if the guy in the sky has it all sorted, if he really knows what he's doing, each time, when things get a bit difficult, when the mood is tense, emotions are running high, and Faith seems...quite painful, and complicated-but remember, at these times, if not more so than any, God is there, and he wants you to let him in, he wants to listen, he wants to hold you, to help you, to heal you Give God your whole self, and not just the leftovers, the bits you don't want, the bits that you're unsure of, give him your all, so you may recieve the full measure of his love... I was beginning to wonder, if the pain and nerves in the run up to my mega trip, were actually worth it, but then today, as I stood in the rain, saying my goodbyes to some of the most incredible people I know, God gave me a rainbow-it was beautiful, it made me cry...but not only that, it made me realise that once again, I had doubted, him, the creator of all things...what kind of p...

The world is a wilderness, waiting for the flow of God's river...take courage, fear not. I love the above quote, and therefore googled it, and consequently found this article by revival preacher Andrew Strom....which it won't let me copy & paste, so thats annoying!! I've put it in a note on facebook if you want to check it out. As someone mentioned in a sermon the other week-farmers don't harvest when the time is convenient, they harvest when the crop is ripe, when the time is right, when the things set in place are ready....don't expect God to work his wonders when you wish, when its convenient for you, when you ask him, not even when you beg or plead with him, God uses his mighty power for the better, but only when the time is right, when the things he has set in place are ready, when his people are ripe, when things are organised, when places are set, when he is ready-when his plan allows it!! God answers our prayers in his time, not ours... Amen ...

This song is my most played at the minute, I love it :) It was on a CD I got for my baptism, off my sister and husband, and its lovely Before the Morning: Do you wonder why you have to, feel the things that hurt you, if there's a God who loves you, where is He now? Maybe, there are things you can't see and all those things are happening to bring a better ending some day, some how, you'll see, you'll see Would dare you, would you dare, to believe, that you still have a reason to sing, 'cause the pain you've been feeling, can't compare to the joy that's coming so hold on, you got to wait for the light press on, just fight the good fight because the pain you've been feeling, it's just the dark before the morning My friend, you know how this all ends and you know where you're going, you just don't know how you get there so just say a prayer. and hold on, cause there's good who love God, life is not a snaps...

This is a bit of a mish mash of stuff, but the title was easily chosen-it was a question put forward during a sermon a few weeks back, now I can't really remember the context it was given in, or why it was asked, however I can say that its stuck with me, its lodged itself in my head and heart, and its making me wonder....is my faith free range, what does it mean to have faith like this, how can we become more free range?? Now I don't have the answers to these questions, and i'll delve further into these in another post, but for now, here is a brief insight into my head: Its so easy in today's society to get caught up in everyone else's business, to get so immersed in 'life' that we forget about God, when really, we should be offering our whole lives as praise and worship to our awesome God, our God who is constant, who gives us freedom, yet seeks to meet us in every time and every place, wherever it may be. Our God who gives us eternal life, so that we may...

I have been so busy lately, its insane, I can't believe its August already, its the 6th...so I leave the country in 15 days, 2 weeks tomorrow :s That's really scary-I can't believe it's happening so soon, i've got so much to do, im really getting scared now, like im so unbelievable excited, but it really is sinking in now, I feel sick....Im going to miss so many people...what if I can't do it, what if im not strong enough...arghh!!! Its really happening, its actually real-I can't wait, but I really don't want to leave people, I don't want to lose people :s Im doubting myself, and it making me doubt God, which I know is daft, because God is all loving and is in charge of the bigger picture...but what if it falls apart whilst im out there? What if Grandma dies, what if my Dad gets ill again, what if he gets really ill?? What if something happens to Charis, what if someone gets hurt-what if!! Mess of me-Switchfoot I am my own affliction I am m...

When it appears God is drowning you in deep water, do not fear...for he is simply cleansing you, so that you may be refreshed On Sunday 17th July 2011 at approximately 12.30 I was baptised-Its a day that will stick in my head and heart, forever I was submersed in Gods love and grace, being dunked in the river was soul cleansing, life refreshing, love recieving awesomeness. Im not sure i've ever been so happy, yet so sad at the same time-I feel so humbled to have been privilged enough to know his wonderous love, to have him in my life, to have been chosen by him It appeared to be a dull and miserable day weather wise, but for that short period of the day, the rain stopped, the air was full of expectation, the river softly flowing, the trees gently blowing, and just as I rose from the water, fully cleansed, inside and out, forever and always by his almighty spirit, a beam of glorious, radiant sunlight shone down, blessing me with the grace of God himself, never have I felt so worthle...

At Prayer and Praise a few weeks ago, there was a video playing, and it really made me fall to my knees in awe and wonder of God, it made me fall to my knees in horror and sadness at human kind, and the things we do, but most of all, it made me fall to my knees with an overwhelming love for God-I can't share the video, but I can share some of the things it said: I'm not sure where you are today...but I know where he was that day I'm not sure what you're doing today...but I know what he was doing that day I'm not sure who you are today...but I know who you could be You could be a new creation, at one with him again, you could come awake, come awake with Christ today So today, tomorrow, next week, whatever you do, do it for God, do it for he first loved us, for he still loves us, for he will always love us Let go, Let God Amen <3 Go in peace, for the Lord is with you, always and forever

Motivated by love, all else falls into place....I guess when we seek God, when we reach out to him, because of our desire to know and be known, because of our eagerness, and our motivation, we can be transformed by the his power. 'Everything you do, you should do for God, for everything he does, he does for you' Lord, you came to us in love....we must not restrain that, but embrace it, we must not place barriers around what you gives us, but allow it to roam freely, we must not burden your gifts with the acceptance of others, but allow them to shine through, we must not chain ourselves to world things, but release ourselves to the power of your spirit Dying you destroyed our death, rising you restored our life...you are with us, to the end of the age, and beyond We, as humans are quite good at stepping back into our captive past, falling back into what we know, leaning on the familiar, we get too comfortable in our knowledge and understanding of things, that we are too afraid t...

Wordle creates clouds of words from text you give it, I thought id see what my blog looked like when 'wordled'. Im glad to see the things that leap out at me are; God, life, change and love So here you have it: Amen <3 Go in peace, for the Lord is with you, always and forever

This and the next few posts are an assortment of stuff, an accumulation of things from various people and places that I've wanted to blog about but have been unable to post for one reason or another.... Some wise person once told me that: Scripture, isn't the end of the story, its the creating of context....this isn't something id ever really thought about, but actually its true, all the stories in the Bible, all the things Jesus said and did aren't done and told to create a happy ending-they are done to create a positive beginning, a context in which we can see things change, see things happen, and example for us to follow, they show us the way in which to do things, not the way we should have done things....Nowhere in scripture does it say 'The End', this isn't some cheesy film or romantic fairy tale, its about real life, and I can assure you, when you're on your death bed-they'll be no credits popping up....instead I hope to find a feeling of peac...

I have so much to say, but I haven't got the time right now, so il make it short....first of all I would recommend that EVERYBODY reads 'Eat, Pray, Love' by Elizabeth Gilbert-im reading for the 2nd time in a row and its awe inspiringly amazing. Secondly, inspired by the sermon this morning, may I remind everyone that: Wherever or however you may be lost, you can be sure that the Grace of God will find you And thirdly, a song we sung in church this morning, it really touched me so im sharing it: Father, I adore you Lay my life before you How I love you Jesus, I adore you Lay my life before you How I love you Spirit, I adore you Lay my life before you How I love you Amen <3 Go in peace, for the Lord is with you, always and forever

I have so many things I want to say, so many words from last weeks sermon, so many thoughts floating round in my head, but i've just been so busy that I haven't had the time or energy to blog....now im really feeling like it, but im im going to Spain tomorrow id better get to bed-5.30am is not a time im looking forward to being awake at, let alone leaving my house!! But one cannot moan, for 12 days of sunshine, swimming, sunbathing and relaxing are worth an early morning!! :) So I leave you with some wonderous places of inspiration: www.unwindyourmind.com www.makemestfu.net I hope everyone is ok and has a wonderful couple of weeks, I shall endeavor to blog whilst im away-depends on my sunbathing schedule ;) Remember though, where ever you are, with yourself, in life, in the world, be it Marple, Spain, or the Artic Circle: 'I am with you, and will watch over you wherever you go' Genesis 28:15 Amen <3 Go in peace, for the Lord is with you, always and forever

Change doesn't happen overnight, but that doesn't mean its not happening... I realise i've made a lot of mistakes in my life, I don't like the person I was, but ever so slowly thats changing, since February a lot of things have fallen into place, my life is good, im actually happy, im beginning to appreciate the things I have, im slowly getting my drive back, im slowly finding myself again, and im hoping this change will lead to further change, with me becoming a less selfish person, someone who puts other first...which as much as I hate to admit it, isn't something im good at, im a selfish person, I know this, and im working on it, but it cant happen overnight. I realise i've said things in the past, and i've meant them at the time, but just because you mean something, doesn't make it easy...however much you want something, it doesnt mean you'l be able to achieve it, its takes more than just desire, it takes strength, it takes character, it takes ho...

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world.There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” By Marianne Williamson I’ve realised that it doesn’t matter if I have ups or downs, that is not what defines me. What matters is that I pick myself up after each fall: That in itself is liberating Your time is limited, so don...

Nobody said following God was easy, nobody said being a Christian was easy...but nobody said it would be this hard-seem like something you're familiar with? Its all well and good sitting back and praising God, when life is all roses, when your boyfriend sends you soppy messages, you chat for hours on the phone with your friends, your mum has a day off from nagging, you get a good mark in your exam and the sun is shining... but what happens when your friends turn out not to be what you thought, when you haven't got the motivation to do your work, when its dull and rainy outside, when your boyfriend isn't sure of how he feels and your parents are driving you mad...what then?? The bottom line is,'you won't get what you want, until you've learned to use what you've already got' This reasonates so truthfully to me, so strongly, why would God bless me with someone who loves me so much, if I am unable to love others as God desires, why would God grant me good m...

This is my most played at the minute, its called 'Each Day' and its by Bluetree, we sang it at prayer and praise for the first time the other day, with the guitars going and stuff, and it was gorgeous...I recognised it but couldn't recall how, luckily for me my brother pointed out that I had it on cd, hence i've played it repeatedly since then. Check it out on youtube, its a lovely song, the lyrics just humble me, I love the chorus Each Day: Each day, in the morning sun I see You And my heart cries out with praise, for You King of this heart Each time, in the sun or rain I feel You And my spirit cries with praise for You Lord of this life For You never leave me alone Even when storms cloud my way And I can't see breaking day You never leave me alone For You'll get the praise Your due For even the rocks cry out to You And when it's said and done You never leave me alone Each night, in the evening moon I see You Your beauty shines for all to see King of glory ...

The Livingstone...never before have I really thought or cared much about this metaphor, its never appealed to me, and its never affected me, until Sunday, at the beginning of our service we had a lady speak to us about The Eden Bus Project, about the work they do with 'lost sheep', we then had the sermon about the cornerstone, the livingstone, and it all fell into place, I saw it, like id never seen before, I felt it, like id never felt before.... In poorer countries where they cannot afford builders for their churches, they often employ someone to place the cornerstones, then they build the rest of the walls themselves-they get the solid truth marked out, the basic structure, done by someone who knows how, and the rest they do together, as a team. Our lives are a bit like that, Christ marks out our cornerstones, and we fill in the walls-letting ourselves be built into a spiritual house, we haven't got it all figured out, we haven't got all the answers-we haven't go...

The sun is shining, i've booked a riding lesson, im eating a bagel-om nom nom,my rabbit is happy, im seeing my friends later, its church tomorrow, and im going on holiday in 2 weeks...life is good, yes i've messed up, yes i've got things wrong, again, and again, but the people out there that know me, believe in me, love me, know that I am sorry, and I know this, today, I forgive myself, for as a good friend of mine raised the point...how can I expect others to forgive me, if I cannot do it myself, after much thought, I guess he was right, so thank you for that :) I realise that without my past, I would not have this 'present', and thats quite a big thing to get my head around...but im happy, not all day, not every day, but im happy, and that my dear friends is AWESOME. Check out this website, it makes me smile everytime I read it http://1000awesomethings.com/ Every cloud has a silver lining, every difficulty has opportunity, every experience has lessons, so im embra...

Im an impatient person, im rubbish at waiting, at hanging around, at not knowing... I guess I need to use this time wisely, but I struggle to shift the focus from whatever it is im waiting for...hindsight is a horrible thing, for it lets you see all the wrong you did, all the mistakes you made, but only once the point has past, once the damage has been done...I guess one has to try to fix things as best they can and then sit...and wait...and wait...and wait, to see if they succeeded in sorting things out, or if hindsight simply showed then so as to help prevent future mess ups If you're reading this, it probably applies to you, in some way, shape or form i've probsably hurt you, and I didn't mean too, but that doesn't really help currently, because now I sit and wait, impatiently, whilst kicking myself for doing what I did, for hurting you, I can only hope that you see how sorry I am, I can only hope you believe that I would do pretty much ANYTHING to fix things, to sor...

It's behind you...isn't it?? Is our past ever really, our past? All the stuff, all the debris thats behind us, all the things we did, the words we said, the actions we never took, the mistakes we made, the regrets we have...are they ever really in our past, do we ever really recieve forgiveness, from others, from ourselves, from God???? In answer to the first one, well im not so sure, I mean we make a mistake, or we don't do what we should, and in an ideal world, we realise we got it wrong, we say we're sorry, and we mean it, and that is that, forgiveness is given and we move on...but in reality, how many times have you stood accused of something, when you can't see what was so wrong about it, or how many apologies have you muttered, because you had to, because you were told to, because it was 'the thing to do', how many apologies have you said, with real meaning, with real feeling, with real sorry attached.... From being little kids, we told, over and over ...

1 Corinthians 13-The message: 'We don't yet see things clearly. We're squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won't be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We'll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us! But for right now, until that completeness, we have three things to do to lead us toward that consummation: Trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly. And the best of the three is love' I love the Message bible....especially this bit :) For me it conjures up an image of a small child lost in the fog, visible only by her bright red wellies-she can be seen, but that doesn't tell her see which way to go, but then bursting through comes a radiant beam of sunshine, lighting things up, showing her the way-suddenly she can see, as clearly as we could see her wellies :) The Message is awesome!! Amen Go in peace, for the Lord is with you, always and forever

Who do I prefer,you may ask, the Bee Gee's, or Take That? Well I guess thats pretty irrelevant really, as thats not my point...regardless of who sang the lyrics, in all seriousness, I ask you, how deep is your love? How deep is your belief? How deep is your Faith? 'What matters is not the idea a man holds, but the depth at which he holds it' ~Ezra Pound This struck me....quite hard actually, its fairly easy, in todays society of 'freedom of speech and equality' to stand and shout aloud that one is christian, that one believes in Jesus, that one loves God...but when a person merely keeps hold of these thought with the minimal of grip with their fingers, they mean nothing, they are words, empty words with no actions to follow, yet when a person grasps hold of these thoughts, with eager outstretched arms, when a person pulls these thoughts towards them, keeps them tight against their heart, protects them...it is then that things will happen, it is then that one will g...

This past week has been a bit of a struggle for me, i've been feeling a bit low, for no particular reason...if id said this last year, I wouldn't have been surprised...but actually, the past few months have been a real turn around, things are really looking up, life is so much better, im so much better....so this week has been quite difficult to deal with, it seems to have appeared out of the blue, but what it has reminded me of is that throughout everything over the past 8ish years, throughout all my struggles, throughout all my anger, pain and doubt...God has been there, I couldn't see it at the time, of course not...but hindsight is a wonderful thing. This past week has made me look back, compare how I am to how I was, how I dealt with things then, and how I deal with things now...he has been here, by my side, catching be when i fall, and carrying me forwards when i thought it wasn't possible, so i guess...he was with me, when nothing else remained, when all hope was...

The power of words combined with a persons perception and opinion of there own self worth, or lack of, is a strong thing... There are a lot of things I dislike about myself, a lot of things I'd like to change, willpower to change, being one of them....but then just because i know these things, just because I see these faults, doesn't make it any easier when someone else sees them... I guess, we all strive to our image of perfection, our own image of self, our own sense of 'enough', but really, will we ever feel that we're enough, will we eve feel that we've made it, that we're ok...how much of ourselves do we have to change...or eradicate, to create the us that we want, who is actually no longer us, but someone different.Its often stated, that you can't change a person, yet we try anyway, is this because we're so aware of our inablity to change ourselves, so we try to mould others instead??? I've got to be myself, because everyone else is taken.....

No more faffing about, no more sitting around doing nothing, no more being a lazy unhealthy slob!! I am fed up of being me, im fed up with myself, im sick to death of saying things, thinking things, wanting changes and nothing happening, well not any more. Im going to become a person that I actually like, a person im happy and proud to be A good friend of mine recently asked me, if a leopard can really change its spot...and well as much as I wanted to be encouraging towards her, I wasn't actually sure, as I had been doubting the very same things myself....however, perhaps a leopard can change its spots, it just needs to try harder, and let other people help it more...not that im implying said friend isn't trying...more so a message to myself!! So people, I ask for your help, if and wherever possible, because im realising that I am merely human, and that I am far from perfect, but accepting this is no reason to not strive towards my best, the best, God's best so if I swear, ...

The Lord knows us through and through, every thought that forms, every word we speak, every action we take...he knows all that is seen and all that is unseen. I've had a glorious past few days and throughout it all i've been humbled, firstly by the spectactular Welsh scenery-The sheer immense beauty and 'bigness' made me feel insignificant, powerless and awed...to think that I am such a small part of this awesome world that God created, what an honour to be included amongst it all. Secondly, by Lichfield Cathedral, a place of such size and decadence, I felt so humbled in this place, yet at the same time I felt sad, because God isn't about gold gilding, fancy woodwork and intricate tiled flooring, he is so much more than that, instead of spending time, and money on these material things, people need to be out there, giving, sharing, loving, letting Gods love be shown by whats within them, not how many bouquets of flowers and marble statues their place of worship has....

Take a moment to sit a watch this... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hzgzim5m7oU Amen Go in peace, for the Lord is with you, always and forever

Sunny weather, fantastic friends, lovely family, gorgeous niece, awesome boyfriend, ever growing faith Life is good :) And so i leave you with these words... 'Trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly' Amen Go in peace, for the Lord is with you, always and forever

I love this song, it really touches me everytime I hear it, and especially when I sing it. Nothing more is needed, it speaks for itself In Christ alone my hope is found, He is my light, my strength, my song; this Cornerstone, this solid Ground, firm through the fiercest drought and storm. What heights of love, what depths of peace, when fears are stilled, when strivings cease! My Comforter, my All in All, here in the love of Christ I stand. In Christ alone! who took on flesh Fulness of God in helpless babe! This gift of love and righteousness Scorned by the ones he came to save: Till on that cross as Jesus died, The wrath of God was satisfied - For every sin on Him was laid; Here in the death of Christ I live. There in the ground His body lay Light of the world by darkness slain: Then bursting forth in glorious Day Up from the grave he rose again! And as He stands in victory Sin's curse has lost its grip on me, For I am His and He is mine - Bought with the precious blood of Christ....

Happy easter everyone, I hope everyone is having a nice time and enjoying their chocolate, but more importantly, I hope everyone is remembering the real reason we celebrate Easter, the real meaning, the real message behind it all. In church this morning, I witnessed the confirmation of 2 very good friends, I witnessed God's love and glory shining through these people...and I cried, I cried for them, for me, for us as a human race, I cried with gratitude for all he has done for us, I cried for the immense love he has for us, even deeper than my love for them...I cried, because I remembered, and I felt guilty and grateful, sinful yet sacred, horrified, but humbled Too many people see Easter as the end of trail, the final stop along the journey, the destination aimed for..but this is not the case, for at that moment on the cross,the path was chosen, the story began, afresh, the journey continues, at that moment, things just began...Easter should be a time of praise, worship, joy and p...

A really good friend of mine showed me a 'skit' video of this song earlier, and i didn't really pick up on the lyrics till right near the end, so i looked them up and i fell in love, all over again. This song to me demonstrates how awesome God is, his unending love and hope, his forgiving grace and mercy, his selflessness, he accepted death on the cross, for me, for you, for us....and especially at Easter, we remember the amazing grace and love he showed, whilst hanging on that cross, many years ago... So here it is...'Everything' by Lifehouse-read the lyrics, listen to it, watch the skit on youtube...embrace it, let the love flow through you and the light shine beyond Find me here And speak to me I want to feel You I need to hear You You are the light That's leading me To the place Where I find peace again You are the strength That keeps me walking You are the hope That keeps me trusting You are the light To my soul You are my purpose You're everything And ...

People talk about being wise, about getting wiser the older you get, exclaim in surprise at unexpected wisdom from people of a young age...but what is it all really about, wisdom, what does it really mean?? According to wiki, wisdom is: 'A deep understanding and realizing of people, things, events or situations, resulting in the ability to choose or act to consistently produce the optimum results with a minimum of time and energy. It is the ability to optimally (effectively and efficiently) apply perceptions and knowledge and so produce the desired results. Wisdom is also the comprehension of what is true or right coupled with optimum judgment as to action. Synonyms include: sagacity, discernment, or insight. Wisdom often requires control of one's emotional reactions so that one's principles, reason and knowledge prevail to determine one's actions' I guess wisdom for me is the knowledge, the understanding gained, about life and the way it works, about feelings, reac...

“Only as high as I reach can I grow, only as far as I seek can I go, only as deep as I look can I see, only as much as I dream can I be.” Everytime i read this quote, im struck by how lazy, worthless, and rubbish I am, in terms of where I could be...I think about all the things God has planned for me, all the good I can do, all the change I can be...and I realise how badly i've let myself down, how badly i've let God down, its basically like me giving someone all these things, and them turning round and saying, thanks...but no thanks, il stick with this useless rubbish thing i've already got. I am a child of God, a sacred, blessed, loved, worthy person of God, and I need to embrace this, I need to live so his light shines in me, and through all that he has given me, I need to live my life through him, for him, in homage to his overwhelming grace... I need to kneel before him, in worship, in pray, just as I am, not as i wish to be, nor as I think I ought to be, but simply as...

There is no neutral ground in the universe: every square inch, every split second, is claimed by God and counterclaimed by Satan. -C.S. Lewis Water the seeds of faith, for they will bloom and outshine the weeds So light up the fire and let the flame burn, Open the door, let Jesus return I walk in the rain with a smile on my face, for i am being cleansed by Gods amazing grace The Lord will either calm your storm, or allow it to rage whilst he calms you ‎Awestruck we fall to our knees, as we humbly proclaim, you are amazing God When it appears God is drowning you in deep water, do not fear...for he is simply cleansing you, so that you may be refreshed I believe in Faith as I believe the sun has risen. Not because I see it, but because by it I see everything else -C.S. Lewis I shall boast in Jesus Christ, his death and ressurection Amen Go in peace, for the Lord is with you, always and forever

I spent yesterday listening to 'Forever' by Chris Tomlin, and i was really struck by how awesome Gods grace really is, how powerful he is, and i feel so humbled. 'And by the grace of God, we will carry on' It is with his unconditionally love that we live an breathe, that we are who we are, it is the power of his unconditionally love that gives us the strength to keep going, to strive for more, to carry on.....both in times of joy and in times of difficulty There are times in life, when things happen, or feelings occurs, and life doesn't go as planned, as expected, when sometimes, you just dont understand, I know that soemtimes, I sit and ask God, why this, why that, how is this happening???...because I feel so at a loss, I am unsure of what to do, of how to be, or perhaps I know the way I should go....yet am finding it difficult to do so...it's times like this when Gods never ending grace works in us, and through us, allowing us to put our faith and trust in him...

today is one of those days..my final visit day at placement, before i am teaching for 8 weeks after the easter holidays, so to start off with i overslept, woke up at half 7 which is the time im supposed to leave!! Then i couldn't find my car keys, did eventually, but by this point im already tired, stressed and got a headache...and its not even 8 o clock. Get to school after a slow drive due to mega water on the roads, rush to make a hot choc and my porridge for breakfast as i didn't have time at home, dont have time to eat my porridge, have a good morning with the kids, although i bit hectic and mismanaged as i hadn't found out what i was doing, because id been trying to have my breakfast....which i managed to eat, cold at breaktime. Then the rest of the day went ok, at the end of the day i should have stayed and tried to do some work or something, but i had a headache and all i could think about was getting back to the flat, so i could drive home :) Im now at the flat, ju...

I came across this, and it seemed fitting, take a few minutes out of your busy schedule, pause for a few moments, read and absorb....let the love grow, let the love flow, for God has granted us with such amazing opportunity, to lead a holy journey, a pilgramage of grace, and a sacred adventure in faith: Over the years, I have discovered life is a journey, a pilgrimage, a sacred adventure. Within everyone’s inner solitude, there is that bright and warm hearth where the spirit dwells waiting to be roused. There are many paths to enlightenment, their teachings rich and varied offering wisdom and “food for thought” and everything we need for our journey to awakening lies within us. In the beginning, spirituality appears like the bud on a bloom, opening gradually, tempting us with a glimpse of its splendor and unfathomable depths. It is here we create the blueprint of our collective existence. Each of us from time to time experience crises from different life changing events and transitions...

Its only April, but i feel like this has been one of the longest, most painful, yet most change inducing years I've had... That was a tough one. Come on in and stop for a second to shake your head, dust yourself off, and look back at how far you’ve come. Sure, it’s been a long year. Some crushing lows slapped you and smacked you around. There were times your heart dipped and you squinted back tears while your stomach squeezed so tightly you couldn’t sleep. There were moments you walked around in a glossy-eyeball daze — when loved ones hurt, friends didn’t stay, or someone dear to your heart slowly drifted away. Sleepless nights, stressful nights, with teething babies, slurring customers, bad bosses, bickering boyfriends, or blank computer screens. You were feeling and you were dealing and you were reeling and you were healing. But as you walked your hard path down your long and bumpy road some little drops of confidence dripped like coffee into your head and into your heart. As you...

An annoymous story, its been around for ages-everynow and then it resurfaces and I read it and am....lost for words, im angry at these people, im angry at myself, but more so, im in awe, in awe of my amazing God and all he has done and continues to do for me, for us, for everyone The Long Silence: At the end of time, billions of people were seated on a great plain before God's throne. Most shrank back from the brilliant light before them. But some groups near the front talked heatedly, not cringing with cringing shame - but with belligerence. "Can God judge us? How can He know about suffering?", snapped a pert young brunette. She ripped open a sleeve to reveal a tattooed number from a Nazi concentration camp. "We endured terror ... beatings ... torture ... death!" In another group a Negro boy lowered his collar. "What about this?" he demanded, showing an ugly rope burn. "Lynched, for no crime but being black !" In another crowd there was a pr...

1. You can’t change other people, and it’s rude to try. 2. It is a hundred times more difficult to burn calories than to refrain from consuming them in the first place. 3. If you’re talking to someone you don’t know well, you may be talking to someone who knows way more about whatever you’re talking about than you do.. 5. Everyone likes somebody who gets to the point quickly. 6. Bad moods will come and go your whole life, and trying to force them away makes them run deeper and last longer. 10. Whenever you’re worried about what others will think of you, you’re really just worried about what you’ll think of you. 11. Every problem you have is your responsibility, regardless of who caused it. 12. You never have to deal with more than one moment at a time. 13. If you never doubt your beliefs, then you’re wrong a lot. 14. Managing one’s wants is the most powerful skill a person can learn. 15. Nobody has it all figured out. 16. Cynicism is far too easy to be useful. 17. Every passing face on...

Lately my faith has really turned on its head, I've re found something I've been looking for, for at least 4 years now, and you know what? It's bigger, better and more beautiful than it ever was :) Life has been pretty darn difficult, but If it all lead me to this amazing point in my relationship with God, then im thankful, truly I am, I don't wish to experience it all again, but I can't regret when it produced something so wonderful, something so powerful, something so full of love, grace and mercy. A few weeks ago i went to see LZ7(a really good christian band), and they were AMAZING, more so than I could ever have hoped!! During the evening my brain whirred like a flipping washing machine, one thing that really jumped out at me was the line: 'Its difficult to make yourself when everyone is trying to make you someone else' This really hit home for me...as i think part of the reason why ive struggled at uni is because i tried to re invent myself to be someo...