Doubt....or dare to believe?

Each time I begin to wonder if the guy in the sky has it all sorted, if he really knows what he's doing, each time, when things get a bit difficult, when the mood is tense, emotions are running high, and Faith seems...quite painful, and complicated-but remember, at these times, if not more so than any, God is there, and he wants you to let him in, he wants to listen, he wants to hold you, to help you, to heal you

Give God your whole self, and not just the leftovers, the bits you don't want, the bits that you're unsure of, give him your all, so you may recieve the full measure of his love...

I was beginning to wonder, if the pain and nerves in the run up to my mega trip, were actually worth it, but then today, as I stood in the rain, saying my goodbyes to some of the most incredible people I know, God gave me a rainbow-it was beautiful, it made me cry...but not only that, it made me realise that once again, I had doubted, him, the creator of all things...what kind of plonker doubts someone with as much power as that-me, you, all of us, as humans??

I guess my thoughts at the minute, are whatever happens, God will shine through, regardless of whether your doubts kick in or not-He knows what is best, and he is in charge, surrender all to him, give him your all, and not just the leftovers, for isn't he worthy of so much more than the scraps from our table?!

'Into the darkness you shine, out of the ashes we rise'-Our God-Chris Tomlin

Amen <3

Go in peace, for the Lord is with you, always and forever



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