I told you so....

Do you ever get the feeling that you're meant for more, that you're destined for greater things?

Do you ever get the feeling that you're meant to be doing something, going somewhere?

Lately I've been feeling like God is driving me forwards, like he's telling me to get off my lazy butt and get moving, start living out my faith. I feel like I'm being driven to praise him, not just on a Sunday, but the whole week through, I feel as though he wants me to go somewhere, and do something, something worthy, something great.....now don't get me wrong,  I'm not being big headed,....I don't feel that I deserve this calling, I don't feel that I'm so good that of course he wants to use me for his purposes....

I guess I just feel something a pull from somewhere, a message that's trying to get through....I'll keep praying into it, because right now, I'm doubting whether or not its even coming from God, or simply from myself, yearning for adventure.

In a way, I almost feel that God is telling me to simplify, to minimise, to reduce, to cut down, on many things; on negative feelings, on snacking, on moaning, on wasting time, on driving, on talking, on possessions....

In the middle of all this, there is my car, which decided to break and thus requires scrapping-now funnily enough, the garage nearby had a car for sale, so my parents lovingly found out about it and gathered up the various details and pieces of information I would need...and hey ho, it looked like I could buy a new (for me) car straight away, for relatively cheap....on the surface the idea looked great, it sounded great...but something deep down, in my gut said no, it was uncomfortable, it didn't feel right....something didn't fit, somewhere, somehow, and I didn't know what, or why but I knew that getting this car was the wrong thing to do, so I cleared my throat, I fought the 'common sense' and 'practicality' monsters and I said NO, I don't want this car....and guess what? I didn't get it.

Now I have no massive story to go on and tell you about the fact that it then happened to blow up the next day and isn't that lucky because had I bought it I might have been in it when it happened...or anything else dramatic like that....but I just know that buying that car wasn't the right thing to do, so I didn't.

I feel that God is telling me to prioritise, to sort my life out, to put my all into the important things I do, to reduce my possessions, to take stock, to stop talking.....and listen, really hear what he has to say to me.....and I guess, not buying that car was perhaps part of this

Now all this sounds great, however if you know me, you'll know that; I talk A LOT, I have A LOT of stuff and I waste A LOT of time doing nothing....so this isn't God setting me some measly Saturday challenge, no he's going beyond that, this is bigger and ultimately better-God is setting me a life challenge, a faith challenge-he's setting out to test my strength, my faith, my determination, my motivation, my substance-will I respond, do I accept his challenge? Well actually, no, not just yet; I'm not ready, I cry out....I need more time, more help, more energy, more *insert other pathetic and ridiculous excuses here*

I need to pray into this,  A LOT!! But I guess that's ok....if you're reading, it would be great if you could pray into it to :)

So, how is God challenging you in your life? If he isn't, maybe you need to listen harder....

Where is he directing you to go? Are you resisting, if so, why?

What is he asking you to do? Are you doing it, if not, why not?

What pathetic and ridiculous excuse have you used lately? Do you really think God believed you....if you're anything like me, then he knows you're a cop out, he knows you're lazy...but he'll keep pushing, he'll keep fighting, until you run out of pathetic, ridiculous excuses...and then what? You'll move forward, in the direction he has chosen, as he asked you to all that time ago, it probably won't be easy, but the best thing is, he'll be there right beside you...and he won't say 'I told you so', even though he has every right to!!

Amen <3

Go in peace, for the Lord is with you, always and forever