Perfection
The power of words combined with a persons perception and opinion of there own self worth, or lack of, is a strong thing...
There are a lot of things I dislike about myself, a lot of things I'd like to change, willpower to change, being one of them....but then just because i know these things, just because I see these faults, doesn't make it any easier when someone else sees them...
I guess, we all strive to our image of perfection, our own image of self, our own sense of 'enough', but really, will we ever feel that we're enough, will we eve feel that we've made it, that we're ok...how much of ourselves do we have to change...or eradicate, to create the us that we want, who is actually no longer us, but someone different.Its often stated, that you can't change a person, yet we try anyway, is this because we're so aware of our inablity to change ourselves, so we try to mould others instead???
I've got to be myself, because everyone else is taken...but that doesn't stop me trying to sneak bits and pieces, taking ideas, copying designs from other people...its just the finished product will be a lesser version of this self we strive towards, for we have to use the pieces we were given, taking jigsaws pieces from another box may well fill a space, they can perhaps be adjusted and moulded to cover the gap, to hide the hole, but they do not, and never will complete the picture!!
Only I can be me....and I guess i've got to come to terms with that, only I can be me, and only me can I be....I cant be something im not, I cant be someone im not
I guess I need to work on my insecurities, my self worth, my perceptions and self esteem, I need to draw closer to God, to the me he created, the me he loves, I need to find acceptance...where to find it? Well I guess it comes from within, how to find it? Now thats a different matter entirely....
Amen <3
Go in peace, for the Lord is with you, always and forever
There are a lot of things I dislike about myself, a lot of things I'd like to change, willpower to change, being one of them....but then just because i know these things, just because I see these faults, doesn't make it any easier when someone else sees them...
I guess, we all strive to our image of perfection, our own image of self, our own sense of 'enough', but really, will we ever feel that we're enough, will we eve feel that we've made it, that we're ok...how much of ourselves do we have to change...or eradicate, to create the us that we want, who is actually no longer us, but someone different.Its often stated, that you can't change a person, yet we try anyway, is this because we're so aware of our inablity to change ourselves, so we try to mould others instead???
I've got to be myself, because everyone else is taken...but that doesn't stop me trying to sneak bits and pieces, taking ideas, copying designs from other people...its just the finished product will be a lesser version of this self we strive towards, for we have to use the pieces we were given, taking jigsaws pieces from another box may well fill a space, they can perhaps be adjusted and moulded to cover the gap, to hide the hole, but they do not, and never will complete the picture!!
Only I can be me....and I guess i've got to come to terms with that, only I can be me, and only me can I be....I cant be something im not, I cant be someone im not
I guess I need to work on my insecurities, my self worth, my perceptions and self esteem, I need to draw closer to God, to the me he created, the me he loves, I need to find acceptance...where to find it? Well I guess it comes from within, how to find it? Now thats a different matter entirely....
Amen <3
Go in peace, for the Lord is with you, always and forever
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