Change

Change doesn't happen overnight, but that doesn't mean its not happening...

I realise i've made a lot of mistakes in my life, I don't like the person I was, but ever so slowly thats changing, since February a lot of things have fallen into place, my life is good, im actually happy, im beginning to appreciate the things I have, im slowly getting my drive back, im slowly finding myself again, and im hoping this change will lead to further change, with me becoming a less selfish person, someone who puts other first...which as much as I hate to admit it, isn't something im good at, im a selfish person, I know this, and im working on it, but it cant happen overnight.

I realise i've said things in the past, and i've meant them at the time, but just because you mean something, doesn't make it easy...however much you want something, it doesnt mean you'l be able to achieve it, its takes more than just desire, it takes strength, it takes character, it takes honesty, it takes God...

And I finally believe im getting there, I just need the people in my life to hold out for a little bit longer, to have a little bit more faith, to trust me, because im not the only one that can see the change now, other people are noticing, people comment on how i've changed, how i've grown up-and thats motivating, thats exciting

So if you're going through a change, be strong, be brave and stick with it, if you're witnessing a change, have patience, have faith, if you want to change, but don't seem to be able to just yet, keep working on it, keep trying, it will happen, have hope!!

I may be cracked, but im not broken, and im slowly beginning to see this, I mess up, a lot, far too much than im happy with, but I believe im getting better at seeing this, at dealing with it, at hopefully preventing it in future....

I've realised that it doesn't matter if I have ups or downs, that is not what defines me. What matters is that I pick myself up after each fall.

That in itself is liberating-and it gives me the strength to go on, to believe in myself

Amen <3

Go in peace, for the Lord is with you, always and forever

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