The sound of sheer silence

It turns out, I have so many questions....yet none of the answers How is it that.....? I have the luxury of living in the amazing, modern time of now, yet I dare to be bored? I can complain about feeling fat, because I eat too much, yet others are starving so there children can be fed? I moan about being unhealthy, yet am too lazy to exercise, when there are people out there who have to walk miles just to fetch some water? I get annoyed with myself for turning my alarm off, staying in bed and wasting the day, when there are people out there who don't have the luxury of a bed in the first place? I get wound up about being 'skint' when in reality, I'm so much richer than a massive proportion of the world? I get annoyed when my housemates don't keep things tidy the way I would like, when I'm fortunate enough to be in a house full stop? I have the ability to phone, text, write or even Skype people who I cannot be with at the moment, yet still I wallo...

Do you ever get the feeling that you're meant for more, that you're destined for greater things? Do you ever get the feeling that you're meant to be doing something, going somewhere? Lately I've been feeling like God is driving me forwards, like he's telling me to get off my lazy butt and get moving, start living out my faith. I feel like I'm being driven to praise him, not just on a Sunday, but the whole week through, I feel as though he wants me to go somewhere, and do something, something worthy, something great.....now don't get me wrong,  I'm not being big headed,....I don't feel that I deserve this calling, I don't feel that I'm so good that of course he wants to use me for his purposes.... I guess I just feel something a pull from somewhere, a message that's trying to get through....I'll keep praying into it, because right now, I'm doubting whether or not its even coming from God, or simply from myself, yearning for a...

Today I went to G2,  an informal cafe style worship service, that I've been meaning to check out since being in York and just haven't got round to doing so, well today, I did...and it was good :) We had communion...but in the run up to that, we were told a story, a story of a man, who was a wonderful friend, who did good to so many people, a man who was betrayed, and hung on a cross to die, a man who ultimately gave his body and his blood for the forgiveness of our sins...the story proceeded to tell of the mans friends, of how after his death they looked back, fondly, remembering that time when Jesus broke bread and drank wine with them, for he knew what was about to come....but not only this, they remembered the time when he fed so many people on a beach, they remembered when he walked on water, they remembered the many times when they feasted together, they remembered the time when Jesus healed people....and the list goes on, and on, and on.. Well that was their story, an...

As I was walking back from church these 2 boys appeared in front of me, and I happened to over hear some of there conversation-now I'm guessing they were probably about 9/10ish...just bear that in mind Boy 1-"By the way, what you rate me?" Boy 2-"How'd you mean?" Boy 1-"Like out of 10, as a friend...." *I managed to miss the next bit but then I heard: Boy 1-"I mean I know I'm not your best friend or anything.." Now, as I said earlier, these boys were probably about 9/10ish...yet they are already comparing themselves and rating themselves, they are already concerned with what people think of them and the impression they make... Now I didn't really have many friends as a kid, so my experiences probably don't speak for the norm-but was I rating myself and my friends at this age?? Were you? More to the point perhaps, am I, or should I be rating  people at all, regardless of my age, or theirs? Now we all know people w...

I totally fell in love with God once again this morning-largely triggered by this awesome song by Rend Collective Experiment Build Your Kingdom Here: Come set Your rule and reign In our hearts again Increase in us we pray Unveil why we're made Come set our hearts ablaze with hope Like wildfire in our very souls Holy Spirit come invade us now We are Your Church We need Your power In us We seek Your kingdom first We hunger and we thirst Refuse to waste our lives For You're our joy and prize To see the captive hearts released The hurt, the sick, the poor at peace We lay down our lives for heaven's cause We are Your church We pray revive This earth Build Your kingdom here Let the darkness fear Show Your mighty hand Heal our streets and land Set Your church on fire Win this nation back Change the atmosphere Build Your kingdom here We pray Unleash Your kingdoms power Reaching the near and far No force of hell can stop Your beauty changing h...