One of those days....

today is one of those days..my final visit day at placement, before i am teaching for 8 weeks after the easter holidays, so to start off with i overslept, woke up at half 7 which is the time im supposed to leave!! Then i couldn't find my car keys, did eventually, but by this point im already tired, stressed and got a headache...and its not even 8 o clock. Get to school after a slow drive due to mega water on the roads, rush to make a hot choc and my porridge for breakfast as i didn't have time at home, dont have time to eat my porridge, have a good morning with the kids, although i bit hectic and mismanaged as i hadn't found out what i was doing, because id been trying to have my breakfast....which i managed to eat, cold at breaktime. Then the rest of the day went ok, at the end of the day i should have stayed and tried to do some work or something, but i had a headache and all i could think about was getting back to the flat, so i could drive home :)

Im now at the flat, just about to gather my bits and head home, which is awesome...but had the sinking realisation that im back again on monday....technically until half term, which is ages away :'( i could go home at weekends whilst on placement, but i have no money, and il probably have too much to do...talking of which, i have half a dissertation to do, and so much lessons planning, im seriously wondering if i can do this :s i can be with the kids, i can be in the classroom, i can teach...its just all the planning and paperwork etc, which you dont have to do in the same way once you qualify...so why do we have to do it this way now, its too much, i don't know if i can do it, i don't think im good enough!

I just want to get home and curl up and sleep....so much to do and so little time :s but i know that God is with me, and that he will somehow give me the strength to do what needs to be done, i believe this, i know this, but today, im struggling to see it, but this will pass i know, for my God is an awesome god, above all wonders of the world, above all...there is no way to measure what he's worth

I leave you with a wonderous message my friend reminded me of-Gods never ending care, Gods never ending love for us, Gods never ending refuge for us:

Trust in Him at all times, pour out your heart before Him for God is a refuge for us!" Psalm 62:8

Amen <3

Go in peace, for the Lord is with you, always and forever

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